This applies to EVERYONE: I started this thing to put down how I feel about things at a certain time. When I want to talk, but feel like I can't. It's really just that simple. If you don't like it, I'm sorry. I'm not out to make anyone feel like they're being put down. If you feel that way, there must be some truth in what I'm saying.

7/12/2004

Song of the Day: "Natural Life" - Breaking Benjamin

I don't know how much longer I can operate like this. One would think, with the way I'm feeling (physically), that I would be sleeping right now.

I feel like I'm becoming a bit delusional. But one of these days I'm going to find out that I really do have the power to wave my hand and make my upstairs neighbors heads implode. Not that they're pissing me off, it's just an example. When that does happen though, you all better watch out.

I must admit: I am a liar. Something is wrong. I don't want to talk about it.

More likely, I don't how to talk about it. Here I am, four days from 24 years of age and I'm a bitter old man. I feel as though I harbor so much hatred for everything that I'm going to explode if I don't hurt someone.

I've said it before, and I'll say it again: People are stupid.

I used to think that my purpose on this Earth was to help people. I'm not so sure that's what I'm here for anymore, and if it is I don't want to. I'm tired of trying to aid a useless cause. I'm tired of helping the helpless. I want to shove my hand down their throats each time some verbal defecation falls out of their mouth and rip their innards out.

It's time to drive nails again.

I'll explain later.
Posted by: Scott / 4:09 AM
Comments:
Helping people is useless. The people who would need help are already trying to help themselves, and that's why it's called helping someone. Help the other fucks in this world, and you end up doing the job FOR them. And it fails, because after you stop, things return to the way they were before. People ARE stupid; trapped in their own mindsets and their own ideals and ideas of the way things SHOULD be and WILL be. You have the ability to see and think outside of your own box, and view the world, the real picture. That's why people seem stupid. Because they can't see past their own boxes. And they build them up after you shatter them, like they either don't care or don't know any better.

You know who all I'm talking about. Don't beat yourself senseless over that shit, man. I hope this helps in any way possible.
# posted by Blogger Quilled One : 7:32 PM
 
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