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Whining And Complaining
This applies to EVERYONE: I started this thing to put down how I feel about things at a certain time. When I want to talk, but feel like I can't. It's really just that simple. If you don't like it, I'm sorry. I'm not out to make anyone feel like they're being put down. If you feel that way, there must be some truth in what I'm saying.
4/23/2004
Well, I slept last night. Granted it was a beer induced sleep, I was out by three. I'm feeling a bit more optimistic this afternoon, but physically I'm quite achy. My neck is killing me.
I think that being on the road with Mark is much better than being with Jeff. Time seems to go by faster. Granted I've been away from home for a week now, it feels like a week. If I were with Jeff, it would've felt like a month. That's one of the main reasons I don't like working with him. Plus when I'm doing all the demos time seems to go by much faster.
Everyone is being very supportive on this trip too. I haven't really been selling a whole lot here, mainly because everyone says they're broke, but they spent forty dollars on dinner before coming in for the demo. I hate stupid people.
Sometimes I wonder why everything has to be such a challenge. I'm not just talking about working, I'm talking about everything. The job you do, the people you know, your family. When you do something, what are you doing it for? For the paycheck, the appreciation, the sex, or for yourself. We are all whores. Everyone has their own hidden agenda. By that train of thought, I'm probably the biggest whore of them all. People like me, they do and do for people and don't really get much in return. We don't ask for it, we expect it. That's why I've pretty much given up hope on a lot of things. I don't ask for much, but when I do, 90% of the time, it doesn't happen. That's why I've gotten used to not speaking my mind. Because I don't get the appreciation, and sometimes not even the paycheck. The sex I think I get just because, but that's not even for me.
If I were doing something for me, I wouldn't do anything.
It doesn't matter what you say, there isn't one person that you know that is behind you 100%. They have a reason for knowing you. What can you do for them? God forbid you should know someone just to know them. It kinda makes me sick thinking about it.
I think that being on the road with Mark is much better than being with Jeff. Time seems to go by faster. Granted I've been away from home for a week now, it feels like a week. If I were with Jeff, it would've felt like a month. That's one of the main reasons I don't like working with him. Plus when I'm doing all the demos time seems to go by much faster.
Everyone is being very supportive on this trip too. I haven't really been selling a whole lot here, mainly because everyone says they're broke, but they spent forty dollars on dinner before coming in for the demo. I hate stupid people.
Sometimes I wonder why everything has to be such a challenge. I'm not just talking about working, I'm talking about everything. The job you do, the people you know, your family. When you do something, what are you doing it for? For the paycheck, the appreciation, the sex, or for yourself. We are all whores. Everyone has their own hidden agenda. By that train of thought, I'm probably the biggest whore of them all. People like me, they do and do for people and don't really get much in return. We don't ask for it, we expect it. That's why I've pretty much given up hope on a lot of things. I don't ask for much, but when I do, 90% of the time, it doesn't happen. That's why I've gotten used to not speaking my mind. Because I don't get the appreciation, and sometimes not even the paycheck. The sex I think I get just because, but that's not even for me.
If I were doing something for me, I wouldn't do anything.
It doesn't matter what you say, there isn't one person that you know that is behind you 100%. They have a reason for knowing you. What can you do for them? God forbid you should know someone just to know them. It kinda makes me sick thinking about it.
